Yu Xiuhua, the poetess who writes “yellow poetry”, is at war with the Internet keyboard man again.
She expressed her love for singer Li Jian on her micro blog, only to be pointed out by a netizen that it was an interruption to Li Jian.
Yu Xiuhua not happy, immediately called off back: “you are not his wife, flatter yourself!”
This intolerant attitude amused the crowd.
In fact, Yu Xiuhua star is not a day two days, although there is contact, but she has never given Li Jian a phone call, a private message.
Li jian, on the other hand, admired her and read her poems on the show, saying that she “ventured into the world with her poetry genes, writing poems in the clouds and living in the earth.”
Parties are honest and forward, blind worry about is not eight line of net friends, really ridiculous.
No wonder, then, that controversy has never left Yu xiuhua’s side since she first appeared on the public scene.
On her body, there were many labels: farmer’s wife, cerebral palsy, poet.
But I feel that she is just a lust for love, a wandering soul in search of love.
01
An ungrateful woman
Yu Xiuhua was born quietly in 1976 in a small village in Hubei province.
The village health worker cut the umbilical cord before she cried, leading to a lack of oxygen in the brain and cerebral palsy.
The brain is fine, but the cerebellum is damaged, and since then it has been difficult to walk, to control facial expressions, and to speak.
This accident, did not let Yu Xiuhua lose the ability that take care of oneself completely.
But she was sentenced to death.
Disability meant a lifetime of survival, meant everything had to be made up – especially in marriage, when someone was willing to marry her, it meant a great deal of kindness.
So when she was 19, her mother decided to marry Yu xiuhua and Yin Shiping, who was 12 years older.
Even if there’s no love at all.
Twenty years went by, and the children grew up, thinking the rest of their lives would go on like this.
The yu Xiuhua that can person arrives middleaged, want divorce resolutely however, who is advised all in vain.
The mother was in tears. She said her daughter’s heart was too hard.
Yu Xiuhua, who had been arguing for herself, was briefly silent for a few seconds after hearing this.
In fact, not only the mother, everyone does not understand her.
“More than three years after my divorce, our villagers still feel that I should not, as if they feel that a woman in the countryside who asks for a divorce is, above all, a betrayal, not of the man but of their deep-rooted social values.”
In the eyes of the public, Yin Shiping is hard-working and strong. Once he earns money, he sends it back home to support his wife and his parents-in-law. He is worthy of her.
Not to mention her physical condition.
But only Yu Xiuhua know, Yin Shiping to her, just like a pig in a pigsty.
To give food and drink on time, to promise not to starve to death or freeze to death, is to assume the duty of a husband.
But the personality inequality between husband and wife, the husband’s ridicule of his wife’s physical illness, the merciless kicking her out of bed when she is ill;
Even the safety of his wife’s life, ordered her to stop the car to recover the arrears of 800 yuan wages, because “you are disabled, he will not hit you”…
This pile of things for him insignificant, but in spirit, over and over again the dignity of Yu Xiuhua.
Yin Shiping wanted men and women to live together; What Yu xiuhua wants is a combination of body and soul, or at least basic respect.
Two complete strangers, how to grow old together?
Yu Xiuhua is not willing to, not willing to life like this, like an animal born, alive, dead.
She didn’t want to die in a loveless marriage.
She will take the time to love freely, even if there is nothing left in the end.
So, yu Xiuhua wants a divorce even if she is cursed.
Finally, the opportunity came.
In 2015, Across Half Of China to Sleep with You exploded the Internet with a thunderclap.
For a time, Yu Xiuhua fame noise, the media swarms into her home compete to visit, the publishing house actively contact published poetry……
Those with night and day brewing out of the sad, warm, tenacity, dedication, was found, but also changed her fate.
After making money, the first thing she did was get a divorce.
But Yin Shiping strongly disagreed.
“Who were you before that a man might marry you? As a disabled person, I sympathize with you. Now that you are famous, you don’t want me? If you dare to leave, it will stink you!”
But Yu Xiuhua has been tired of, she would rather spend a lot of money to buy back freedom, also do not want to face this man.
The negotiations dragged on, and the 20-year nightmare was over.
Freedom is a little unreal, and Yu Xiuhua needs to constantly think and confirm:
“Am I really alone?”
Almost the same state of mind before and after the divorce, the state of the marriage more confirmed the bleak, sad.
Still, she was glad it was the best decision of her life.
02
Do not adhere to the “women” desire female
Yu xiuhua also hates himself.
She used to say that it was too discordance for the soul to live in such a body — for what the soul needed was often bound up with the body.
People laughed at her, humiliated her, pitied her, pitied her, but no one loved her.
Natural lack of love, so the desire of women to love in particular.
There is no place to pour out the tenderness and melancholy, let her head into the poetry of the country.
Paul Celan, Akhmatova, Frost and Lei Pingyang were the brilliant poets who had accompanied her through the long nights of tossing and turning during two decades of broken marriage.
Her delicate and sensitive emotions due to her illness also gave her unique ability to feel.
Those lonely days, those silent moments, gradually condense into poetry and flow out of that incongruous body.
Poetry has not forsaken her, so she never cheats poetry.
Just like the song “Across half of China to sleep with you”, passionate and unrestrained, as the heart has been suppressed for a long time.
… No more than is
The collision of two bodies is nothing more than a flower that the force makes bloom
It is only the virtual spring of flowers that makes us think that life has been reopened
Or “I love you,” like a shy girl, shy, tactful.
If I send you a book, I won’t send you poetry
I’m going to give you a book about plants, about crops
Tell you the difference between rice and tares
Tell you that one tares is in fear
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At times, she confides in her sufferings, as in the song “My Dog Barks”, which accuses “a marriage of bullshit”.
He pulled my hair and knocked me against the wall
The wizard kept wagging his tail
For a person who is not afraid of pain, he can do nothing
Of course, she doesn’t shy away from her own pain or pretend to be strong, confessing that “I can never love like them.”
I can only crawl through the mud
Only my shadow has been standing
This unique and real life experience, like a drop of rain, fell in the reading world of Liu Nian, editor of Poetry magazine.
“Her poems, placed in the poetry of a Chinese poetess, stand out like a murderer among a group of ladies of high rank — everyone else is neatly dressed, painted and perfumed, with nothing to smell of sweat, but she is smothered in smoke and mud, with visible blood stains between the words.”
Yu xiuhua’s poems are just like his, not clever at all, full of rebellion against tradition.
Because the female sex never hide their desire for sex and love, express straightforward and even naked.
For her, sex was a physical need, a physical pleasure, but also a way of love, a way of life.
This magnanimity and directness reminds me of jiu ‘er and Yu Zhan ‘ao’s sex in the sorghum field in Red Sorghum.
The sky was a quilt, the earth a bed, the rickety sorghum and rustling leaves all around them were rude and primitive — completely trampling the man-eating feudal system under foot.
One does not fall into obscene reverie, but is struck by the power of life, by the rebellion of freedom.
Because sex is such a natural thing.
So, “I have no remorse for my little yellow poetry, and I will keep writing, I am willing to stand in the saliva of all people, maintain my original desire and chastity.”
In a sharp way, She declares that even a woman, even a disabled person, can be angry, can also be brave to express their love, hate, lust.
03
Against the desire of heaven and earth
However, it is also this magnanimous, yu Xiuhua attracted a lot of abuse.
She is so rebellious.
As a peasant, it is better to be plain, honest, and well – behaved.
Because of disability, it’s best to be optimistic, grateful for what you have, and be an inspirational role model.
Because he is a poet, it is better to write elegantly, care about big things and little people, and be aloof from worldly strife.
As a woman, it is best to be gentle and virtuous.
Can desire female, broke all people to her imagination and expectation unluckily.
Between the lines are their own emotions, or low, or warm.
What you think and think is your own desire, or implicit, or bold.
She doesn’t talk about grand topics, like a middle-aged man pointing out the country at a wine table, but quietly expresses her individual feelings.
In Yu Xiuhua’s body, those forced to give “meaning”, all saw the ghost.
The poet’s forefinger saw this and began to criticize bitterly. “What does it mean for the critics to make her famous? What about critical seriousness? I’m worried.”
Moral pacesetters tried to smear her with morality, even calling her poems “slut poetry.”
Unexpectedly, she will be an army instead, “I am a slut, how do you wear?”
The morality of the chastity archway had no effect on her at all; it was nothing but a mockery.
— Yu Xiuhua knows exactly what the problem is.
‘My fault is that I can’t pretend, much less pretend to be miserable! My fault also lies in holding my head high at the bottom of society. I don’t know what dignity is. I just want to live like this.”
Therefore, for the inexplicable attack, she also never tolerate, want to scold scold, big swear words.
Sharp attitude, let the keyboard man by its harm of the netizen loudly extol, gave the name of “combat poetess”, “keyboard man Nemesis”.
Of course, Yu was not without questions: How could a poet swear?
But she didn’t think much of it. “Real breeding is a distinction between right and wrong, between love and hate. Many people never utter a word, but when they do something bad, people and god are angry with each other.”
I’d rather be a real boor than a sanctimonious hypocrite.
This unruly and arrogant, some people admire, inevitably some people look unpleasant.
Those who have embraced her have embraced her as a leader, calling her a role model for modern women.
The disgusted party saw her as a target and focused their fire on bringing down the head bird.
But in reality, Yu xiuhua is nothing.
“I’m not pursuing the liberation of women, I’m just pursuing my own liberation.”
She didn’t want to start a trend or take responsibility, she just wanted to be herself.
Poetry, but her crutches, support her to stagger around the world.
But The much-discussed Yu Xiuhua is different.
“When one is able to set oneself free, one saves a lot of people, because the example that people see in you is an encouragement to him.”
The existence of erotic women does not flout light or darkness, but merely offers another possibility of life.
Refuse discipline, bold and rebellious itself, is to give the vulgar world a resounding slap in the face.
04
Sex is free
Ever since Yu Xiuhua came into the public eye, there has been no shortage of controversy about her.
Some praised her true nature, others called her eye-catching.
But poetry is only a means of self-redemption.
“For me, I am complete, quiet and happy only when I am writing poetry.”
“Even though I am not a clean place polluted by this society, back to poetry, I am clean again. Poetry has always cleansed and pities me.”
The words are hot and romantic, the feelings are strong and unrestrained, the desire for love and to be loved grows vigorously from the depths of life, like a ivy creeping on the ground, but spread to all sides infinitely.
But this green vine has no intention of telling any truth to anyone.
A disabled body, live into the life of the most robust appearance.
Source:
- Documentary “Shaky Earth”
- Program Behind the Headlines (January 22, 2015 and February 5, 2015, two installments)
- The Unsteady World
- Moonlight Falls on My Left Hand
- Autobiographical Collection on Earth
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Write at the end:
I’m Qin Sang.
In most people’s mind, “poetry” is noble, “sex” is vulgar.
However, women’s use of poetry to describe sex undoubtedly touches the bottom line of tradition.
Can read between the lines of the arrogant and rebellious, I found that an unruly soul, is getting rid of the pair of discordant body, spelled a life to live a clear spring of life and death.
Her frankness about sex and love, as the poem puts it:
“I too have had years of lust/many nights of broken hearts/But I have never banished myself/I want my body as clean as my heart.”
Put aside the obscene eyes, love is just love, sex is just sex, is a person’s life around the secular topic.
But life is so tenacious that it can stagger out of its own wonderful.
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