And live a life of grace

I know very little about her.

Before I read her words, I knew her only as Yang Jiang, the wife of Qian Zhongshu, the daughter of a family and the mother of a child. I don’t know anything else. After I read her words, I wanted to understand her, to understand her, to understand everything she wanted to convey in her words.

About her he, is before I have not thought of reading as a thing to do, have already known about, especially his “Fortress Besieged”, is the Chinese teacher often used to illustrate the reading, and even I once suspected my Chinese teacher only read such a novel. And it’s one of the few books I’ve read twice. Even so, I could not relate his success to her. Until one day, I found a book called “Go to the edge of Life” when Browsing the online bookstore, just know, she can also write books.

After reading her book “To the Edge of Life”, my knowledge of her suddenly broke through the limits of what I could imagine. And her words just fill the gap in my mind and heart, it makes me to life, to life and death, to live, have a closer understanding.

Then I read her three of us. The contrast between the two books made me realize that she should be a “generalist”. Sure enough, her best and most famous play is her play. So far, I can say that I have achieved a comprehensive understanding of her, but not the whole. I also often sigh with emotion: the world unexpectedly still has such beautiful woman. It has to be said that a book or a story will change one’s cognition of a kind of “thing” in a casual moment.

And when I see a biography written by someone else about her, the first thing I see is grace. Before this, I never thought she could be graceful. At the same time, before this, I did not have much insight or understanding of the word “elegant”. When I read the book written by others and live A Life of Grace, I began to know more about her and grace.

About her grace, it seems to me more like a kind of calm after leisurely. For example, in the face of the sudden attack of love, she is resolute and firm, she is willing to drop everything to accompany him to study abroad. In the face of the trivial marriage, she is more calm, calm and loving. When he rushed to the hospital with a frightened face to see her who had been hospitalized for childbirth, his first words were to tell her that he had been in trouble. He had knocked over the ink bottle and stained the whole tablecloth. When she heard it, she simply said, “Never mind, I can wash.” When he came to see her the next day and told her that the light was broken, she said, “Never mind, I’ll change it.” When he came back and told her that he had broken the shaft of the door, too, she said simply, “Never mind, I’ll fix it.”

Her “does not matter” after the event also really did not matter. At the same time, her “no matter”, also like a stabilizer deep implanted in his mind, body and mind, as well as the rest of his life. And her unimportant, also once let me I once suspected, I know qian Zhongshu in addition to writing, the other all don’t understand.

But even for such a unimportant person, there were moments when she mattered. When she learned on her way back to the land that her mother had long since died, she cried. I believe that at that moment she is important, her heart is there was remorse, but when he went to calm her mood, she did not matter very quickly.

Many years later, when she faced her daughter’s departure and his departure, she did not cry. Perhaps because she has already seen through the world of all sorts, perhaps when she had forgotten their own vulnerability, or perhaps she has been used to do not matter. Years later, she has provided the answer to readers’ suspicions in Her book “To the Edge of Life”.

About her, I do not want to say too much, understand her people will naturally understand, do not understand her people do not need to understand. Her existence is like a beam of light in the dark night, once lit up the whole dark night sky, also once disappeared in the universal people (because she is too low-key). But her inner perseverance and certainty, calm and calm, has never changed because of the change of the environment or circumstances.

Reading the book about her life written by someone else, I felt the restatement and supplement of Three of us, but this time I saw, read, felt and reviewed it from the perspective of a third person. And in this book, I was surprised to learn about her “jiang” origin. Before that, I only knew her by her real name, Yang Jikang, but I never imagined that her “jiang” would have something to do with her “Jikang”. This was because her ji Kang sounded so much like “jiang,” and so many people mistakenly called her “Yang Jiang.” (To verify this, I read her name quickly in private several times). That’s why she came up with the idea of using the Chinese character Yang Jiang as her pen name when her first play, “My Heart Desires,” was published. Since then, the name Yang Jiang has officially become a new synonym for her.

Comparatively speaking, I prefer to call her “Yang Jikang”, because I know not only her writing, but also her people and her elegance.