On the morning of December, father and son finished packing their equipment and were ready to go.
In 2020, Qian Hao will be 50 years old.
When chatting with people, he often misses the youth he spent in his hometown of Xiaogan, Hubei, which was his most carefree days. There, he married Wu Jianhua, a girl from the same village, gave birth to his son Qian Kun, had his own business, a stable income and a promising future.
Because of the business failure, in 2002, Qian Hao came to Beijing with his wife and son at the age of 32 and started a long drifting Life.
At that Time, Qian Hao still had strength, and he followed his hometown to do odd jobs in construction sites, “at first, it was only 25 yuan a day, I did the work of two people by myself, and got double wages At the beginning, it was only 25 yuan a day.
Qian Hao was willing to bear hardships, love to study, learning by doing, handling, welding, civil construction, big and small jobs, and was a famous capable person on the construction site, and once had his own engineering team.
Qian Hao thinks his biggest shortcoming is “lack of business acumen “, so often suffer losses.
He had left the construction site, with the money saved to open stores, trading, “to make things easier “, but none of them ended with a loss, and returned to the site.
In June 2016, 46-year-old Qian Hao fell from a high place on the construction site and injured his vertebrae, and then could not do heavy physical work. After his injury, he fell into a “mid-life crisis” for the first time when his job search hit a wall. The panic of “mid-life crisis”.
“The Family‘s expenses are getting bigger and bigger every day, and prices are going up. When he first arrived in Beijing, the rent was only 100 yuan, but now it is more than a thousand, and this is almost the cheapest room he can rent in Beijing.
At the end of 2017, he became a “flash delivery The “rider”.
Life, once again, began anew.
The 22nd move
In 18 years of drifting in the north, Qian Hao has moved 22 times.
The most impressive “Home” for him “Qian Hao’s family lived in a bungalow next to a railway bridge hole.
Nowadays Qian Hao delivers orders and occasionally passes by Baijia Village, a large green belt, Film and Television cultural park and forest park, covering the memories he once had. Only the only remaining bridge cave, can let Qian Hao remember how it once looked like, “that was our most peaceful period of time “, next to the bridge cave, Qian Hao opened a small store, than in the construction site to earn more money.
“If we live like that, life should be good now “, Qian Hao said, but in 2008 under the financial crisis, the small store business fell apart and was forced to close.
Qian Hao once those “home “Now they have become office buildings, shopping areas, parks or new construction sites, leaving him with only a few vague memories.
In 2020, Qian Hao moved his home four times.
Now, he lives in an apartment converted from a private house outside the East Fourth Ring Road, where a family of three shares a room, not spacious but quite cozy. Qian Hao said that when he was young, the couple was so busy making a living that they often locked their son in the house alone, without a little friend or someone to talk to him.
Qian Hao blamed himself for this. He believes that his son’s introverted personality was formed at that time.
Half a Beijinger “?
Over the years, Qian Hao has suffered a lot, and one of the main reasons he does not want to leave Beijing is that he wants his son’s “starting line But with his son becoming a rider, like him, Qian Hao’s hopes were dashed.
Unlike his optimistic and open-minded father, Qian Kun is frugal and cautious by nature, and slightly shy in the face of strangers. The formation of this character comes from the subtle influence of family Education.
“If you have money, don’t spend it all at once, use half, save half This is the first financial lesson his Parents gave him. Born in a poor family, saving for a rainy day is a necessary awareness.
Qian Kun accepted the teaching of “don’t compare Food and clothes with your classmates, but compare study However, during his sensitive adolescence, the overly embarrassing days still left an indelible mark on his heart.
When he was in junior high school, the teacher of the school folk band asked Qian Kun to choose the same between erhu and flute, and he did not hesitate and chose the flute because it was cheap.
Qian Kun inherited his father’s love for Music and grew up to be the principal flute player of his school’s folk band. Occasional performances on stage were the rare highlight of his youth.
After living in Beijing for more than a decade, Qian Kun thought he was half a “Beijinger”. But at a class meeting in high school, his teacher’s words brought him back to reality: “Foreign students, you can’t take the entrance exam here. You can’t go to school here, so go back home before it’s too late”.
Qian Kun understood that the teacher was not targeting him, but the words still made him feel that an invisible line had separated him from his classmates. This line became wider and wider, and when his classmates discussed travel, famous brands and celebrities, Qian Kun could not intervene and had to hide far away from them, giving him a reputation of being a “misfit”. He had the reputation of being a “misfit”.
Faced with the problem of studying, his father Qian Hao was also anxious.
Missing the college entrance exam
As a child of migrant workers, Qian Kun could not take the college entrance examination in Beijing, and he had to pay 30,000 yuan in “borrowing fee” to study in high school in Beijing. “.
Qian Hao did not think of sending his son back home, but if so, Qian Kun would have to be a left-behind teenager again, and his study would be even more insecure. After thinking about it, Qian Hao and his wife decided to put together a loan fee and let their son go to school in Beijing, expecting a change in policy in the future.
In the year of their son’s high school education, Qian Hao worked hard at the construction site, and no longer went to restaurants with his fellow workers after work, with one eye on saving money, “I have a bag, the bag contains money. I carry this bag, from this site to that site, save enough 30,000, and sent to my son’s school”.
However, the turnaround did not occur, in the classmates to take the college entrance examination, Qian Kun returned home, “If you can take the college entrance examination at that time, on an ordinary undergraduate should be no problem “.
Although with the support of his parents, Qian Kun enrolled in the adult college entrance examination and got a bachelor’s degree in adult education, he soon found that this diploma was not competitive at all in the recruitment market in Beijing.
“Last year, a rare company asked me to interview, a look at my ID card’s Hubei origin, but also did not follow “.
“Life is more than the meticulousness of the immediate, there are poems and faraway fields “, when the son’s song sounded, Qian Hao and Wu Jianhua also danced happily in the box, which was the most relaxing time for the family.
Wu likes to listen to his son sing, but now his son has seldom sung at home, and playing mobile games has become his biggest pastime.
After experiencing working in a spicy pot store and milk tea store, Qian Kun decided to follow his father and become a take-away rider in 2020.
Qian Kun, who had just joined the industry, was often criticized by his father for being unsuitable as a rider, “too steady and not flexible “, such as running outside the single, as long as the green light is not on, even if there is no car in front, Qian Kun also do not move half a step forward.
Qian Hao is older, but his brain is as flexible as when he was young, every time after taking orders, he first does not rush to set off, but first study the map, optimize the route, he is not like other riders who put the phone on the car as navigation, but always arrive in the shortest time.
But Qian Hao rarely passes on these skills to his son, what he doesn’t want to admit is that criticism of his son is actually criticism of himself, and it’s hard for him to accept the fact that his son is taking his own old path.
Beijing’s winter of 2020 was unusually cold, Qian Hao rode his motorcycle around the fourth ring to send a single, the whistling wind scraped his face raw, he stared at the office buildings covered with glass curtain walls, “I used to think, our family Qian Kun I used to think, our family Qian Kun, if only to work inside.
“At least there is air conditioning inside well “.
Singing at a rider’s dinner party
At the end of 2020, Qian Hao’s family participated in a “rider’s dinner”. The rider dinner party was the largest in Beijing.
This is the largest gathering in the Beijing rider circle, and is particularly attractive to young single riders.
But Qian Hao’s purpose for attending was more to broaden his son’s social circle and to get acquainted, with a view to being taken care of by seniors on the road. He wanted his son to shine at the meal and impress everyone.
The meal is nearing its end, some riders have started to get up and leave, in the parents half-persuasion half-push, Qian Kun finally on stage, but a song just sang a beginning, the sound turned off, the stage props also withdrawn.
Qian Kun put on the mask again, put down the microphone, a little overwhelmed.
Qian Hao got anxious and peeled off the crowd to find the organizer, pleading with him to let his son finish his song.
After singing one song, Qian Kun returned to the stage and sang two more songs at the request of everyone. Under the stage, Qian Hao took a video for his son with his cell phone, and his wife Wu Jianhua shed tears beside him.
Every time she moves, Wu will throw away some things, but Qian Kun’s flute, drums and electronic piano, as well as large and small awards she kept. Wu Jianhua still has a little thought, these things, the future son can still be used.
When her son sang at the dinner party, Wu Jianhua’s emotions were out of control, and the familiar son seemed to have returned. Qian Kun said he still likes to sing, just not in front of people singing, “on the way to deliver a single, I often sing “, which makes him feel very free and self.
He understands his father’s harshness towards him and his father’s dilemma in middle age. His father is actually a soft-hearted person, “He misses his grandfather back home and thinks about going back sooner to do his filial duty, but he can’t let go of He misses his grandfather back home and wants to go back sooner to do his filial duty, but he can’t leave me in Beijing”.
My father always says that I have been pressing my heart, but in fact he has been pressing more “, Qian Kun said.
A few years ago, Qian Hao bought a house in Wuhan, a little to pay off the loan. Qian Kun intends to, in the new year, earn more money to carry the pressure of loan repayment.
Qian Kun hopes that Mom and Dad can go back home to retire in peace, as for themselves, “do a few years rider, after paying off the loan and then find another way out The first thing you need to do is to get a good idea of what you want to do. And after that? Qian Kun also can not answer, “Mom and Dad where, I will be where it “.
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