Life is like a lonely journey, mountain a water a journey, we bid farewell to our mother, from a step a return to the nostalgia of distant distant places, lonely life lonely face. Since then, there is no way to avoid ups and downs, the tide to only any impact. In the life course of Mr. Ji in 98 years, experienced too many ups and downs and ebb and flow, he was alone and still, has been walking the deepest loneliness, where the most comfortable flowers come out.
A person must go far, depends on the fate of heaven, can go far, is to rely on their own will to decide. Ji Xianlin, who was born in a remote village, looked down to the earth and looked up at the house and trees he was familiar with. There, he could spend his childhood happily and live a normal life just like everyone there.
However, instead of making a decision as usual, fate chose him to leave his hometown to study in Jinan at the age of six. This decision was made after careful consideration by the family. His father and uncle were dependent on each other since they lost their father in childhood. After that, they decided to share the same spirit and grow up together. His uncle stayed in Jinan and his father went home to stir up the family. But after the two families became independent, Ji only had one son. The brothers decided to spare no effort to cultivate Ji so that he could rise to the top and honor his ancestors.
I love all dogs in the world, just to miss my mother
It was the first time ji moved away from his mother. He did not know why he could not stay like other children. But he dared not resist the decision of his parents and left his familiar home and his gentle mother.
When he came to Jinan to live with his uncle, aunt and cousin, he could not say that the young man’s heart was not lonely, but fate decreed that he was the only boy in the family, so he had no choice. Forward, although it may be a bright road, but the road is doomed to walk more lonely.
Ji xianlin was an excellent student. Living up to the expectations of his father and uncle, he went to Beijing to take his exams and was admitted to Peking University and Tsinghua University. The brothers seemed to breathe a sigh of relief, but he and his mother, never to see each other again in their lifetime, returned to the familiar home and was greeted by a dark coffin, waiting for him to complete the rites of a filial son, so that his mother could be buried.
After her mother had gone, there was only one old dog who always followed her home and never left. Ji xianlin, unable to see his mother any longer, fell in love with all the dogs in the world and his pure heart often overspread his bosom. Therefore, a collection of essays “I Love All the Dogs in the world” is published to let us peek at the heart of an old son missing his mother.
Two, don’t tell his wife, tak ten years, is a person’s day
After graduating from university, Ji Xianlin was hired back to his Alma mater in Jinan. As a freshman, he could not bear the “love” placed by the president. After one year in office, he fell into the embarrassment of Fang Hung-chien-like in “Fortress Fortress” and applied for an exchange place at Tsinghua University in Germany.
This time, to bid farewell to his wife, children, uncles and aunts, was no longer a journey out of the mountains, but a long journey across the ocean to a foreign land. After two years as an exchange student, he had to stay in Germany alone because of the traffic blockade caused by the outbreak of World War II, where he continued to study other subjects.
He was able to study comfortably in Germany, while his family, wife and children had to survive the war. His wife, Peng Dehua, was only a primary school girl who was arranged by her parents’ order. But like all ordinary Chinese women, she was loyal to their destiny and loved her destiny. She respected her in-laws, raised her daughter and was loyal to her husband. Although Ji xianlin did not fall in love with her in his first half of life, he was at least able to raise eyebrows at her.
During his ten years in Germany, ji consoled himself only with books and words. He went away again and again, thinking it was only a moment’s departure, but not knowing that it was good-bye was exceedingly difficult. The first time I left my mother temporarily, I thought the future would be long, but I did not want to see her again. This time I thought it was only two years, but I did not want to be separated by war, so I could see them again in my life. The biting loneliness always gnawed at Ji’s heart.
So when Ji xianlin could return to China, he refused desperately to let his admirers hold him back and returned resolutely. Again and again he went away, abandoned, to the depths of loneliness, how the pain gnawed him, in his words are deeply reflected. But he was not afraid of loneliness, and again and again, like nirvana, he approached it actively.
Bid farewell to the only possible love, return to the depths of loneliness
Ji Xianlin’s wife was a village woman with only a primary school education. It was difficult for ji to feel a spiritual sympathy for him. After marriage, ji’s wife still somewhat despised her. Ji’s choice to stay in Germany may not only be to escape the embarrassment of work, but also most likely to stay away from his wife who he thought was not on the table.
But the news of his ten-year stay in Germany is likely to change some of ji’s views. In Germany, there was a girl who fell in love with Ji Xianlin, but he refused.
During his stay in Germany, Ji quickly became good friends with His Chinese exchange student, And they visited each other frequently. They gradually became acquainted with Imgarde, the beautiful daughter of His landlord.
Of course, every time Ji saw Imgaard, there were only the usual greetings, but the German girl fell deeply in love with the handsome and talented young man. “My father’s factory just got rid of one printer. I can help you,” he said, when he was worried about not having a printer to print his doctoral thesis.
So ji sat by her every day and read to her the manuscript he had modified to look like heaven’s scroll. “Then you should accompany me for a walk every day,” he said, not knowing how to thank her. In this way, they almost went through the streets of Gogentin, sometimes shopping, sometimes going to the cinema, very happy.
But Ji remembered all the time that he wanted to go back and made no response to Imgarde. “I want to go back to my motherland,” ji xianlin said. “In the future, someone will appear who will take better care of your life than Me.”
In this way, Ji moved away from his most likely love and returned to his wife, who arranged a match by his parents. After Ji returned to China, Imgarde never married and died in 2007. He visited her in 1983 when he went to Germany for exchange. But a woman opened the door and said she did not know the man and they missed their only meeting.
Ji’s life, it is a long and tortuous road, but each time, he seemed to be leading with loneliness, his mother left, left her and their children don’t, away from friends, including he miss his son’s growth later, father and son and his orientalism, spitting fire rowan study are few in this world the field, he was like a lonely road pedestrian, don’t, don’t catch companions, is always so lonely and easy to walk.
However, although his life seems lonely, he has a fervent heart. He pities the old beggars when he is young, remembers the helpers in his family when he was a child, and loves the children of migrant workers when he is old. Although he had gone through the old times, war, ten years of civil strife and various blows, had been forced to drop out of school, moral retardation, criticism, but this dedication to loneliness, let him eventually comfortable. Today, at a time when people like to dig into the dark history of celebrities, he seems to have little to dig into. Instead, he has his own Revelations, such as his Diary from Tsinghua University, which he insists on publishing when others suggest some cuts.
Mr. Ji’s true nature is really evident, he is naive, worldly wise, never stand image pursuit of perfection, on the contrary, for a lot of things, he always like to say I can not tell, I do not understand, not the charm of the creation, always say one.
Loneliness is the fate of life, we only close to it, in order to touch their own nature, but a lot of people like lively, is to forget their own heart. Mr. Ji’s collection of essays, “Loneliness to the Depths”, starts from the loneliness of life, trudges in the long distance of life, and finally stays with loneliness, and finally gets the freedom of the soul.
Many of us, on the other hand, yearn for the freedom of the body, so that we are trapped in a cage of thoughts, never able to find the peace of mind. In fact, to the depths of loneliness, everyone is worth having.
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