I don’t like to laugh, recently the health is not good, has concerned my friend to ask me whether to get depressed disease, I am not depressed disease. I do not laugh, is I do recall some past events, and my childhood, adulthood to the present a series of experiences, not I have depression!
I remembered something that had never been mentioned in the news before, but was really a tragic thing that happened to me — my experience after I was sold to Chen’s family.
My father died at the age of nine and my mother was driven away by my uncle. I became a helpless orphan and my fate was in the hands of the wicked. When I was 12, I was sold by my uncle for 7,000 yuan and 500 jin of rice, along with some sugar, liquor and noodles, to Chen, who was 17 years older than me, as my wife. At the beginning of 13, I was taken out to work by this inhuman ugly man, who raped me on the way. Because of my young age, he thought I could not find a job and sent me back to my hometown. After I came back, my uncle refused to accept me to live in his house for fear that I would run away. He did not want to return the money and food he had collected when Selling me. My uncle asked me to stay with Chen’s students, but I refused. He threatened to throw me out of the house and broke my leg. Later by Chen Xuesheng father and matchmaking dope Luo Yuandao three people to consult, uncle, I have lived in his uncle agreed to half a year, at the end of the year by Chen Xuesheng take me away, asked me to this half year which are not allowed to go to, more can’t go to my sister home, (the elder sister: sister have been sold to big her brother-in-law with a 2500 yuan men between the ages of 15 and sister when I sold the age of 16, has become a mother. I was not living in vain at my uncle’s house. He asked me to carry water, chop wood, shoot hogweed, spread dung and do all kinds of farm work. Sometimes when I came back late, my uncle thought I had run away, so he immediately came to me.
In the winter of that year, on the 21st day of the winter month of the lunar calendar in 2001, Chen came to my uncle’s house to pick me up after he came back from fujian province. I hid in my home across the mountains, it’s getting dark, I’m so hungry and be afraid, I secretly back spent a night in the kitchen, the second day before dawn, I hide in my home again across the mountains, the dawn, and looking for my sister to the mountain, Chen Xuesheng following sister came, I saw him coming, let my sister ran, I want to batter to death he throw rocks on the hill, thought that he ran away… In the afternoon he came to uncle’s house with my fourth uncle, uncle stood on the other side of the hill in front of his house call me back, let me and my sister go to Chen Xuesheng home to play two days come back, uncle also prepared JingZhu stick, I’m not from will beat me, under their counsel bullying, I was forced to and sister together with Chen Xuesheng father and son walked. It’s just that once you go away, you’ll never come back.
After playing for two days at the home of The student Chen, I proposed to leave. The mother of the student Chen said that she would not leave until her family had finished killing pigs and eating the rice. She asked the student Chen to pick up his uncle at his uncle’s home and eat the rice. Chen students to uncle’s home, proposed to eat pork rice, let me come back with uncle. Uncle listened very angry, and speak cruel words, he asked Chen students: “Are you a man? A woman would be better off running into a wall than dead. Am I supposed to put you two to bed? The man has been given to you, and it has nothing to do with me to run away!”
My uncle called his 13-year-old niece a woman. He wanted to put his 13-year-old niece on the bed of an old man and let Chen rape me. How could such an uncle still be a human being? If Chen student is a criminal, then my uncle is the devil, he instigated people to commit crimes, lawlessness. Chen student is a murderer, then my uncle is a knife bearer, they two together, the 13-year-old Me to kill! My whole person, in the uncle sold Chen student that day, already dead!
After hearing these words, Chen went home immediately and transferred his uncle’s message to his parents. That night he separated my sister from me. His mother coaxed my sister into her room with two apples, while Chen dragged me to sit by the fire cage. No matter how much my 11-year-old sister and I cried and struggled, we could not win over the two adults. In the middle of the night, Chen dragged me to his room, blocked the door on both sides with bags of fertilizer, put some glue paper on it, and then began to strip my clothes, beat me, strangle me and rape me.
On the 23rd day of the 12th month in the lunar calendar in 2001, I had my first period in my life and didn’t come after that. New Year’s day of the first lunar month 24, 2002, I had 14 years old birthday, my sister to accompany me in Chen village, after the 14th birthday to discuss Chen Jiaren sister back to the uncle’s house, my sister was away, she sat down when she went to the door of the Chen family, sat down on a stone, crying, and scold Chen Xuesheng family dog, Chen Xuesheng’s father was very angry, just dragging their sister. I heard her scold my mother, I said you can scold me, but can’t scold my parents, at that time I was very hate, I gave her a slap, she also angry to give me a disorderly beat, and scold me is their family money to buy. I used all my strength to struggle out, ran to the outside, has been standing outside looking at the back of my sister, has been looking at that direction, can not see, I rubbed my eyes, but why rubbed the eyes or can not see, I tore heart burst to cry. Every day I would sit by the door with a chair in my hand and watch my sister walk away.
The following days were repeated: I was often dragged and beaten by Chen in the middle of the night, and my body was often bruised, red and purple, and I worked with Chen’s mother during the day.
Slowly a long time, the village came the news of my pregnancy, I do not know, in June 2002, Chen students suddenly disappeared, also did not call his home, someone spread Chen students because I pregnant belly big reason fled, afraid of being found he will be imprisoned, fled ahead of time. You see, he knew he had committed a crime. Rape!
On September 18, 2002, I had a big stomach and was going to have a baby. I was only 14 years old, and I was a child, and they forced my body, which was just beginning to develop, to reproduce. All I know about my baby is that I had a stomachache for three days and three nights and I was dead. I was still at home and I didn’t go to the hospital. According to the Chens’ arrangement, I had to have the baby at home.
Some old ladies in the village heard to come to see me, those old ladies looked at me in tears, they wipe tears one by one, some can not see in the past, directly to Chen’s father said to send the hospital, Chen’s father said directly: sent to the hospital was discovered by others my age, his son will face prison. Kind-hearted old ladies said that to ask a doctor to come home to deliver a baby, still be rejected by Chen student’s father.
Later, father Chen Xuesheng brother-in-law came, I drew a operator to drink, the children were born on September 21, only three catties, Chen Xuesheng’s sister and his mother’s brother’s daughter-in-law, Chen Xuesheng few talk about children small like a mouse, laughing, the in the mind very happy, this a few woman threw me away again on one side, like when I was in the production, me completely abandoned on the edge of the gate of hell. Now in retrospect, I was very likely to have an accident, one foot in the jaws of death, I can survive, it is really the yama Lord did not accept my reason.
Child born on the second day of the 14-year-old myself out of bed wash his clothes, and after three days I have to follow Chen Xuesheng parents brought the child to do farm work in the home, according to the lunar calendar in September 20 after chongqing wushan weather has been cold, lili, I have no shoes socks, feet often painful, cold and back down to back sweet potato, since I left waist painful disease, follow me to now, the weather is a backache. The mother of Student Chen would beat and scold me from time to time, but she didn’t beat me enough. She even called her nephew to beat me. Her nephew Peng is very old, older than Student Chen, and his son is one year older than me. He would try to rape me when Chen’s mother was not at home. I resisted him and he gave me five dollars, but I didn’t want it. He was so angry that he slapped me several times and made me bleed.
Chen’s mother often went to his nephew’s house in the evening and said that I was not good to her. His nephew would come over and beat me, saying that he was angry with his aunt. Sometimes very late, I take the child to bed, he rushed into the room to open my quilt, he thought I was not wearing clothes, he touched my body, but I grew up poor, cold winter, developed the habit of sleeping with clothes, he did not succeed once. He kept getting back at me, harassing me and hitting me, telling me to break my hamstring so that I would be disabled and not be allowed to run away.
I was 12 years old to sell his house to 20 years old, during the eight years, a certain aromatic, peng, peng peng one sea, and the younger brother daughter-in-law Chen Xuesheng Dong Ze should have hit me, and it is often hit me for no reason at all for fun, brother daughter-in-law Dong Mou Chen Xuesheng should be back to me with a nickname, called dog (maoist), three people surnamed peng is Chen Xuesheng sister’s children, they say it’s for Chen Xuesheng disciplining me, said Chen Xuesheng much bigger than me, he is old I was young, they are afraid Chen Xuesheng old if you don’t, I’m afraid I can’t use, so the relative to stand for his discipline me in advance, let me give in. From their point of view, if you keep beating me and destroying me, Then I will give in and I will listen to them. In fact, such a beating can indeed destroy a person’s willpower, being beaten scared, really resigned.
This continued until I was 20 years old, when I ran away from the Chen students! The reason why I ran away was that I had normal intelligence, I didn’t accept my fate, I was 20 years old at that time, and I still had some energy. If I accepted my fate, or if I was labeled as mentally retarded or disabled by them, I would probably be beaten to death by them.
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