This Time, it seemed like a completely different experience from any other airplane ride. 3 hours of flight time, and Da Miao was excited for 3 whole hours. Staring out the glare window and contemplating the view from the cockpit, he felt as if he had piloted the plane, flying to Beijing, to a wider sky.
It was the summer of 2020, the day DAMU flew from Chongqing to Beijing. Throughout his senior year, he passed the test and became a reserve flight cadet for a well-known airline. The road ahead begins in Beijing, where he will receive six months of theoretical studies before going to Australia to learn flying skills.
He couldn’t wait for the airline’s notice, and as soon as the school holidays were over, Da Miao immediately booked a ticket and couldn’t wait to open the scroll of his new Life. What he didn’t expect was that this young man, with his hopes for the future, was caught off guard in this city and tasted the vagaries of life.
The germinating dream of flying
Many children have Dreams of flying in the blue sky, but most people’s dreams of flying do not sprout.
In May 2019, an airline was recruiting pilots and he was in his junior year of college when he signed up.
The screening process was six months long, and Daimu made it all the way through. When preparing for the final round of interviews, his mindset had changed from “try ” to “give it my best shot “- exercising every day, eating muscle building powder; memorizing IELTS texts, and making up for his English. At that time, the first semester of his senior year was coming to an end, and his classmates around him had settled on jobs one after another, but he was the only one who was still working towards his “flight dream He was the only one who was still running wildly towards his dream of flying.
On the eve of the Chinese New Year in 2020, the airline finally announced the acceptance of two people at DAMU’s school, and DAMU was one of them. During that time, his friends said to him the most: “Nerd, after rubbing your plane without money! “
Everything seems to be no suspense, he did not hesitate to turn down a job that seemed quite good and professional to others. For a better future or for a dream, even if only for the halo, he was determined to become a pilot.
That’s when the new crown Epidemic came. Swiping the news on his phone was like watching a distant tide that would close in, gradually not reaching past people’s ankles and invading everyone’s life.
The company’s main business is to provide a wide range of products and services to the market. In the past year, he walked one by one through the resume submission, the initial medical examination, the initial interview, the second interview, the political examination …… Now only the last step remains: the signing of the three-party agreement. He said to himself that the future could be at ease.
The original plan, this batch of students will go to Beijing University of Aeronautics and Astronautics in August to learn theoretical knowledge, but the notice to Beijing is delayed. Waiting, the graduation day is approaching, send off the dormitory students, he has a kind of sword drawn four heart of confusion feeling.
Da Miao decided to go to Beijing. “Sooner or later, I have to go, so I might as well stay in Beijing. Notice down, the first time you can rush to Beihang. “Among the scattered information in the school’s employment group, he caught a recruitment for a real estate agency in Beijing. He intended to use it as a place to pitch in when he first arrived in Beijing, and experience life there while waiting for the airline’s notice.
Can’t get to the sky, can’t get to the ground
He called his friends and said he would go. Da Miao called up Xiao Zhu, his childhood friend and best friend. For these two 22-year-olds, drifting in the north is more like a graduation trip, a recklessness before getting into the right track.
Pushing their suitcases out of the subway, Da Miao and Xiao Zhu saw the cluttered streets and the flashing signs of barbecue restaurants at night – it didn’t seem like the Beijing they had imagined.
Throughout the summer, they wore suits and rode electric bikes through this residential area outside the Fifth Ring Road. Every day seemed to be repetitive: following their respective masters to show customers properties, going up and down the stairs, and then up and down the stairs again. After work at 9 p.m., they go to a regular Sichuan restaurant for a meal, play a few games of billiards, and then go back to the rental house to sleep.
Back to the residence, collapsed in bed, each holding a cell phone to see – the circle of friends, Chongqing classmates sun party, sun Food …… Da Miao and Xiao Zhu back to back, but both feel each other’s loneliness.
The unfamiliar environment, heavy workload, monotonous life, adapt to all this is not difficult. Da Miao often said to himself: anyway, soon to go, as a trip here.
What was difficult for him was to call customers.
“Hello, are you considering selling the house under your name now? “” Hello, are you considering the house you were shown last week? “Most of the time, the response on the other end of the phone is not friendly. Da Miao felt it was a nuisance to others and more importantly, damaged his self-esteem.
He told his master the true purpose of his visit to Beijing, and he enlightened him, “No matter how long you are prepared to stay, as long as you are here one day, you have to work seriously one day. “
Daimu picked himself up and forced himself to adapt slowly, but ultimately failed. “I can only do this with a semi perfunctory attitude. The most fundamental reason is still that the difference between the agency and the pilot is too great. “
He looked forward more and more to the news from the airline, hoping to free himself from the status quo one day sooner. However, as the summer slowly passed and he had mapped out all the neighborhoods and routes in the area, there was still no news from the airline.
This was already the time to plan for admission. Da Miao had a vague feeling that things were not going well.
Crash in Beijing
A piece of news that I heard was like a big wave that dashed most of Da Miao’s expectations.
A fellow recruiter told him that the previous batch of prospective pilots had completed their studies at Beihang, but were unable to go abroad for training due to the epidemic and had become “Home squatters They became “squatting at home”. The previous class was still like that, let alone their current class.
Daimu had been waiting for the tide to fade, expecting the road to reappear, but did not expect to face a prolonged tsunami.
The teacher in charge of recruitment called during the period, once “the company will not give up, the process will be opened soon, everyone is well prepared ” and “I’m also waiting for news from the top “. The two phone calls briefly comforted him, but the news of the international airline industry being hit hard by the epidemic gradually made him realize the fact that it was not the airline but the invisible hand that held his fate.
Like a paratrooper who abandons his plane and falls, Da Miao’s heart was dragged back to this small agency store by reality. He raised his head and looked around him as if he were waking up from a dream.
The teacher, a woman in the workplace with thumping heels, delicate makeup and crisp work, her young children stay at home in Shandong, and she is working alone in Beijing. Occasionally, Da Miao can see her powerlessness and vulnerability, but only for a moment, she allows herself to return to the role of the workplace and Family needs. For the first time, Da Miao reads the meaning of life behind “Northern Drifters For the first time, Da Miao read the meaning of life behind “Northern Drift”.
The colleagues around her, no matter how senior they are, everyone seems to be so active and hardworking. In the office, there is often the joy of successful billing, but also the anxiety between customers and agents, and the most circulated story is that a certain “billing king The most circulated story is that a certain “billing king” has achieved financial freedom in the era of soaring property prices in Beijing.
Running through the forest of high-rise buildings, Da Miao often saw the landing and takeoff of flights and felt the heavy gravitational force under his feet. For a while, he wanted to forget his expectations of being a pilot and get down to earth, filling himself with money and finding coordinates. But that thought soon disintegrated. “Wanting to get the agency job done, but feeling that the hope of being a pilot was still there, this false hope, led me not to get the job done. “
Friendship gave him support during the days of decadence and contradiction.
In a new staff meeting, Da Miao and Xiao Zhu met two girls from the leasing department. Are just entering the community of the same age, four people soon became friends.
On the Mid-Autumn Festival, they met to go shopping in Nanluoguxiang, eat snacks in the crowded hutongs, and exchange their college stories and life plans in the bars of Houhai. Under the full moon, Da Miao found solace and an alternative feeling in Beijing.
Fate is also in the tide
October, November, December …… days passed, the recruitment process in the small program forever stopped at “sign the agreement “Before. “No result, the result is no result. “
But Da Miao is responsible for a sale is blossoming into the final sprint. Negotiation room, the atmosphere is anxious, the buyer and the seller are doing the last interest struggle, experienced colleagues are also in both ends of the persuasion, Da Miao heart is calm, talk about success or failure, he is not too surprised. But when the customer signed the contract, he found himself laughing. “I have no ripples in my heart, but just smiling, like who picked up the corners of my mouth. “
Over the past year, it was the only thing that had put a stone in his heart. After completing this order, he knew in his heart that, willingly or not, it was time to turn the page on his expectations for the pilot.
In January of this year, with the introduction of his classmates, Da Miao passed an interview with a company in Chongqing and was able to join after the Spring Festival. He knew inside that going back to Chongqing might be the best choice for now.
2020, one year of the epidemic, one year of dreams, a period of suspended drift. If the epidemic destroyed the dream of flying, then letting go of this last thought is his first step to restart his life.
Beijing
January 6, said to be the coldest day in Beijing since the 21st century, was also the day that Damu and Xiao Zhu left. The epidemic in the north had resurfaced, and if they didn’t leave, they were afraid they would be delayed again. On the way to the airport, Da Miao remembered the day he came to Beijing, the same time of the flight, but the mood was very different. Originally, Beijing is the place where dreams take off, but he learned how to land in this city.
Chongqing
One day in March, a sandstorm hit Beijing, and at this end of the phone screen in Chongqing, Damiao was trying to build a stable and solid life.
He rented a spacious room for a third of the price of Beijing. Time became plentiful, and meeting up with old friends across the river was a weekly routine.
DAMU’s new job is a campus recruitment for a real estate company, and he deals with college students every day. Looking at the young faces, he suddenly felt that he was a little bit more mellow than them – he used to think that fate was in his own hands, but now he thinks that fate is also in the tide.
“Probably blown by the wind in Beijing. ” he thought to himself, showing a “vicissitudes” smile.
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