To do this new sun-like haircut, Liu Kai used a box and a half of hair wax, he measured, his height of one meter seventy-two plus erect hair, the whole person reached two meters high.
Liu Kai proudly wanted to go to the county to show off his new look and earn a little turnback, but then thought about it and estimated that he would not be able to get on the bus with this look – the door was too narrow. His new look is like a diameter of nearly one meter sun, the bus door is not so wide, even if barely into the bus, the crowded compartment also can not make room for his hair.
So, he didn’t want to go into town to show off, and only skipped around in front of his house.
The last of the killer teenagers
Immediately, a dozen people ran to see him, what new look Liu Kai got?
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Liu Kai gave himself a new name: Chinese ghost lady. He does not like to be called Liu Kai, this name is too common.
When he was 12 years old, Liu Kai got his first ear piercing, and later, his brother got three ear piercings in one breath, so he didn’t give in and immediately added two more to himself. After that, once he saw who had more ear piercings than himself, he went to get new ones. By the age of 15, the left ear is densely lined up nine ear piercing, no longer put, he finally felt that no one can be more than their own ear piercing, no one can be more personal than himself.
Elementary school when the popular tattoo stickers, many students in the class are playing, Liu Kai mulled over playing stickers is not enough personality, a person to do the tattoo. That was the first time he saw the tattoo of the big machine – the engine is attached to the needle body, hanging five needles on it, each one is as thick as a finger. That year, Liu Kai 12 years old, the body is thin a little flesh, tattoos selected in the chest, skin wrapped in bone, each time the needle down is bone pain. After ten minutes of tattooing, he could not bear to go on for a moment, and finally only half completed – a small flower.
Originally, Liu Kai wanted to give the flower on the color, red petals, green vines, with the color to look good. But he was afraid of pain, more than a few minutes can not stand, and finally did not color. However, this has been enough for him to surpass everyone, in the same classmates still use stickers on the arm, he has a real tattoo, although this was scolded by the class teacher, he felt proud.
In the personal posting he made for himself, he told a “true story”. In the story, a country boy worked hard to get into a prestigious university, he was called “really competitive” and “fate changed. In fact, Liu Kai’s fate is also changing quietly. In the year he graduated from elementary school, the killing horse culture in the country for the first time into the trend, the hottest time, the posting bar can refresh hundreds of postings a day.
Kill Matt is the name of a youth subculture, is the English word “smart” translation, kill Matt to take its “fashionable, the spirit of” the meaning, in addition, also extends to “alternative, non-mainstream The meaning of “alternative, non-mainstream”. Most of the members of Killmart have exaggerated styling, described by the Times commentator Sun Le Tao as “like being struck by lightning, roots upright sea urchin head, fluffy as a chicken nest like a haystack of explosive head, cock head, etc., generally use a lot of hair wax, dyeing a variety of exaggerated colors”, “eyeliner and heavy makeup The “chain, hanging body ring, strange clothes, extremely complicated” ……
In 2007, after graduating from elementary school, his mother, who was working outside, sent his tuition to home. But Liu Kai does not want to go to school. Even if he goes to school, he doesn’t like to go to school, and he doesn’t want to be controlled by teachers. So, he made a decision not to go to school. The money that was ready to pay tuition was all played off.
One day, Liu Kai took a brother did not use the old cell phone Internet, shopping for posting when you see the photos of the killers – colored explosive head, low crotch pants of young people. Liu Kai felt very personal, reminding him of his favorite DJ dance music, thinking it should be this way.
Like all the killers “into the industry” the first step, he went to change a silver-white hair.
Liu Kai now remembers the pain of hair dye, the cream on the scalp, a kind of burning feeling, thought his head to smoke. He later learned that the hair dye contains the ingredients of lime, lime meets water chemical reaction, releasing a lot of heat in a short time.
After giving himself enough personalized styling, Liu Kai began to learn makeup again. He did not know anything, eyeliner, eye shadow, foundation, BB cream, CC cream …… he did not know what they are, and as a result, he only bought the foundation, and when he went out, he wiped his whole face white. Later he also bought eyeliner, eyeshadow, but are not drawn to the eyes, take the eyeliner pen to draw the whole face with strange symbols, he could not say what this means, is to feel the personality, because as a child he saw in foreign films, foreigners have painted on their faces.
Liu Kai also made himself a face mask – stockings wrapped in several layers, cut two holes on both sides to pierce the ears. When you go out, others can not see his face, a large part of the face is blocked by bangs. He wears sunglasses, plus a face mask, and sometimes holds a cigarette.
He buys clothes only for women (men’s styles are not as much as women’s), and women’s clothes have to be remodeled after they are bought, so the clothes bought directly are not personalized enough. In a clothing photo uploaded by Liu Kai on the Internet, a water-white denim jacket was written by him with various words: “girly”, “Buddha”, “drag”, “Chinese”, “Chinese”, “Chinese” and “Chinese”. “China”, “Mao Zedong” …… red, green, blue and purple in big letters mixed together.
The last killer teenager
In 2007 when he started doing Killmonger, according to his own statistics, the turnaround rate was around 50%. By 2010, he had a turnaround rate of over 70% due to his continued long hair for three years and his increasingly skilled makeup skills and clothing makeover. By 2011, when he dressed up casually, no one would walk out the door without staring at him.
Liu Kai began to believe that he was the best killer.
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Most of the killers gathered together in a “family” way, a family of killers called each other family members, also appear as family members. The family internal hierarchy, including the publicity department, inspection department, review department and other departments, each person has a task and division of labor, to join the family need to upload photos and video verification of the strict procedures. In some clans, if you apply to be a manager, you need to stay active online for at least five hours a day.
And after passing the audit to join the family, it means a ride on the “Killmonger” express. From styling, makeup, clothing to photography, publicity are jointly guided by the family to complete, a newcomer to the killing horse through the assembly line type packaging, can immediately become full of personality. And this is the reason why the majority of people want to join the Killmonger family.
However, Liu Kai did not join any family, he felt that he did not need to rely on the power of the family to dress up, he did not learn how to do hair and makeup with anyone before, he learned it himself, and so creative and personal. “You see a lot of martial arts in TV, a lot of gangs are just together every day, but you see that the real masters are alone, that’s the real masters.”
More importantly, he decided that once he joined the family, he was just a part of it, and what he really wanted to do was to surpass everyone and be the most remarkable one.
The company’s main business is to provide a wide range of products and services to the market. There are also a lot of killers looking for him, wanting him to be a master, to take them to play and teach them how to dress up. Liu Kai is not interested, he only likes to play by himself, without anyone. He feels that those people do not have their own personality, nor do they know fashion, they are like a little worm, can only worship themselves.
He often saw posts on the posting bar, some people said they saw him on the street again, others took the initiative to contact him and wanted to invite him to dinner, some fans specifically sought him out for a group photo, and even a TV station contacted him wanting an interview, offering to help him hype him up and get him fired up. But Liu Kai refused, he does not like hype.
Nowadays, you can’t find any postings about him in bars – except the ones signed by himself, and there are no more photos with fans in Liu Kai’s phone, they are all in other people’s phones, and as for the unsuccessful interviews by TV stations, they have also disappeared.
In the interaction with netizens, he no longer behaves like a “netizen”.
In a post with Liu Kai’s photo, he @ several netizens, and one replied – “Please don’t be black”, saying he didn’t want to have anything to do with him. And in another person’s reply, Liu Kai enthusiastically said, “Go home and treat you to a big meal,” to which the other person replied, “Do I know you well, owner?”
Liu Kai a little embarrassed to say, “home to eat a meal is not familiar with it,” the other said he did not have this blessing, afraid to be killed by his girlfriend group. He responded that he actually a woman did not, the previous postings are bragging. “I know you best at the posting bar.” The other party stressed again – “I’m not familiar with you” – and then never replied.
The posting bar is one of the main positions of the killers, they take their own photos, on the top of the unified write “killers” large font and family QQ group number, in the posting bar, microblogging and other social networks screen proliferation spread.
In this process, there is indeed a kill horse so become famous. The first thing you need to do is to pay the price, and then you can hang the photo in the QQ album of the red man.
The first of these is the first one in the country, which has a ranking of the top people who can show their photos and QQ numbers. At that time, his website explicit price, “two hundred dollars to you to hang a year”, and then, “those people want to red want to crazy”, the site’s position a grab and empty, this business, Luo Fuxing earned tens of thousands of dollars from it.
There are constantly people posting on bars and douban, calling themselves “internet celebrities”, and there are constantly people falling into the same imagination of fame as Liu Kai. The fame has become the demand of most of the killers, and the more astute ones can also profit from it.
The last of the killjoys
On January 26, 2014, he updated his whereabouts in a posting bar: “China Ghost Girl”, as all celebrities do, except that the bar was cold and full of news posted by his small number. The Chinese ghost lady was seven days away from returning to Jiangsu; by January 31, that countdown became two days; and on February 1, he teased that he would be appearing. However, this series of messages did not gain the attention of anyone except for the many small numbers he runs himself.
On March 17, Liu Kai’s small number posted six posts in a row with names like: bgfffds, uycdsdfddg, heel method, a gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga gaga.
He registered as many as dozens of posting accounts, including “no one beyond design”, “no one beyond design 01”, “no one beyond design 02”, “no one beyond design 20”, “thick virtue of the ghost lady”, “mysterious people of the ghost lady”, “China ghost lady total management”, “the world’s top ghost lady”, “no one beyond the people” …… these numbers in their own posting bar self-questioning, each other “top” and “step”.
Liu Kai also posted in other bars, but the bar of Killmonger wouldn’t let him post because he didn’t have a family; the largest bar at the time, Li Yi Bar, wouldn’t let him post either, and once he did, it was quickly deleted because he always said he had the most personality, and the bar staff felt that such expressions would easily lead to cursing wars.
One of his postings in Li Yi bar luckily survived, with more than 10 million hits and nearly 10,000 comments a day. He sat in front of his computer reading comments from people giving him photos, and he replied when someone complimented him.
However, this popular posting did not leave much trace in Li Yi bar either.
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Liu Kai’s mother and father went out to work when he was very young, and his grandfather died early, leaving only his grandmother and brother at home. Grandma is old, brother is in school to mix, no one at home to take care of him.
From 2009 to 2012, Liu Kai did four years of killing horse, is also the killing horse boom and bust years. During this period of time, the country’s killmonger everywhere, with large and small families, no one can even say the exact number. A self-proclaimed founder of Killmonger microblogging has 80 million followers, while the real number of Killmonger is much larger than this.
They use QQ groups as a link to establish contact, become friends because of the common hobby of killing Matt, together with styling, together with dress up, and then take many photos to upload on the network. However, even at the height of the boom in the killing horse, Liu Kai did not make a few more friends as a result.
He has recognized more than a dozen sisters, but somehow, now only three or four on QQ, he reckoned that people deleted him. And the remaining three or four sisters are married, no one cares about him.
He described his life, “since childhood a friend is not”. Liu Kai has been in love several times, but finally broke up, the girl took the initiative to mention.
There was a girl who fell in love for a month, but later found out that he already had a boyfriend and had been living together. Another girl once knitted him a scarf, but in a few months together also and he broke up. A girl who said she wanted to be with him for life eventually never replied to his messages.
Liu Kai again felt that the world a good woman are no longer, he thought, and people outside the family talk is a waste of time, but at home he is not very happy. He and his brother did not get along, his brother used to beat him, and his mom and dad made him cut his hair all day long (during the days of being a killjoy, his hair was as long as 50 centimeters).
However, Liu Kai does not mind that he has no friends, killing Matt used to be his capital of glory, loneliness is also a kind of glory.
He chased a girl in junior high school. Many friends told him that the girl is the school flower, beautiful, so Liu Kai decided to chase her. The girl already had a boyfriend, Liu Kai did not listen, went over and slapped the boy twice and told him to pay attention in the future. “He honestly gave way to me, he was in my next class, what to fight with me?”
At that time, his school girl friend was often bullied, after school a group of people blocked her in front of the school, and after being with Liu Kai, no one dared to bully her again. Liu Kai told his friends at school, who bullied his girlfriend, they have to help the school girl, there is anyone who does not help, he will beat who. He felt very powerful then.
After a while, he added a sentence himself, “mixed with hanging are basically my brother’s friends, who am I afraid of?” He felt that he had no fear and was not afraid of anything.
The two intertwine to form Liu Kai’s complex personality: a loner, friendless, and a desire for violence and conquest. Like a hedgehog, he wraps himself in thorns to resist and even counteract possible harm, while on the other hand, because he is covered with thorns, he cannot really connect with others emotionally.
He put his emotions on his love for his country, which is another kind of “cool”. He said he admired only three people in his life: Mao Zedong, Bruce Lee and himself. On the clothes he remodeled, Liu Kai wrote the words “Mao Zedong” and “China”. Another time, he bought the national flag from Taobao transformed into clothes, the whole body is a red background and yellow five-pointed star.
The last of the horse-killing teenagers
His QQ avatar is a national flag, used for six years have not changed; insist on buying domestic things, foreign nothing to buy. Liu Kai heard that the brand Master Kong was sold to Japan, after which he never ate Master Kong’s instant noodles, and Master Kong’s water is not drunk. But Xizhang can eat, he likes to eat Xizhang, although the name looks like Japan, but he checked, in fact, it is produced in China, can continue to eat.
Liu Kai especially hates Japan. When watching TV dramas, Liu Kai is particularly angry when he sees Japanese soldiers and officers coming to China to smash and burn and rape Chinese women, and he feels that Japan is a country that all Chinese should hate.
Before that, when he was working as a waiter in a hot pot restaurant, two Japanese people came to the restaurant once, and Liu Kai was the one who served the food. After the two people left, someone told him that the two customers were Japanese just now, and he was surprised for a long time and regretted that he had served the Japanese food.
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In 2012, he wanted to buy himself a gun to pierce his ears, after he had nine ear holes and a hole in his lip. After buying the gun, he wanted to have his face pierced: six above the eyelids and six above the chin.
For four years, his mom and dad did not have a day without nagging him about his hair, and told him that the neighbors said he was weird and abnormal, but Liu Kai did not think so. Later, his mom and dad worked outside, only his grandmother and he lived together, his grandmother could not control him.
Later, his family sent him to a barbershop in Shanghai as an apprentice, except for washing hair, he did not learn anything. The whole day is to run outside, to Nanjing Road, to the Bund, where there are many people to go. He went to find the return rate, the more people he saw the more he was happy. At the Bund, there were many foreigners with cameras taking pictures of him, and he did the scissor hand gesture with them.
In Nanjing Road, he recorded several videos and put them on the Internet. The longest one, “22 minutes on Nanjing pedestrian street with Chinese ghosts”, shows a man moving forward with his footsteps through the chaos of the crowd. In such repeated images, time passed 21 minutes and 52 seconds, this video received 382 plays and 13 people liked it.
The last killer teenager
On the Internet, Liu Kai believes he has become a national hit, and in the imagination of fame, he has become his idol.
For those post-90s followers of Killmonger, adolescence is the stage of personality awakening, they want to be different and are eager to express their unique existence in various ways. However, this period they generally lack the capital to prove themselves. Insufficient internal things, they rely on external things to be different, to attract attention, to affirm their individuality, and eventually to gain attention.
And so it is with Liu Kai, carefully calculating his turnaround rate and reveling in the joy of gaining attention.
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In 2011, a national wave of anti-killers was launched in China, with many netizens launching attacks and abuse against killers. This campaign brought a great shock to Killmonger. Previously, there was a huge family of killers, and there were regular intra-family gatherings, and one day a year, the nation’s killers would gather together. And after the national anti-killing Matt campaign, the killing Matt family fell apart, “when playing a hundred people in the killing Matt, now can find ten even if not easy.”
Liu Kai was not frustrated in this campaign, he felt that some people look at killing Matt is not good, so it is to say that killing Matt brain-damaged, perverted, is to gas killing Matt, so that they no longer play killing Matt. If you really get angry at this point, you are falling for their trick.
“I don’t care if people call me names, you can’t stimulate me with anything you say.” Even in the posting bar to see someone name calling Liu Kai, he just look, and not to reply. “For example, people say I am perverted, I will say to him, yes – do not like to cause trouble, do not like to explain, a lot of people say I am perverted, hooligans, I am the same as not heard, because I do not want to see with these general people, no matter what people say about me, I am almost the same as not heard “, he stressed again, “people and I say what I do not compete.”
Now Liu Kai is bouncing between various factories and has changed about ten jobs before and after, often being turned away because he has long hair. He had thought about doing more personalized tattoos, but worried about the trouble of finding a job, no units dare to want him. He was also afraid that he had long hair, dress too personalized, no one and his marriage.
So, he cut his hair with a vengeance. Liu Kai felt that he grew up, many things to start thinking about – go to work, make money, marry a wife …… He could not continue to do kill the horse, kill the horse no class, and no one wanted to marry him.
That memory that lasted for four years came to an abrupt end, leaving little trace except for the postings that no one replied to and the QQ groups that no one joined. In the QQ space, he has tens of thousands of photos, but less than a thousand can be viewed, most of the albums are locked inside by a network password that he does not tell anyone.
He didn’t want to show too many people pictures of himself as a killjoy because they were too girly, with long hair, makeup and female clothing, not manly enough. But he doesn’t shy away from his past as a killjoy, either. “If I see a Killmonger kid now, I’ll think, I was like that when I was as old as he was. I have no regrets, no regrets, who did not go crazy as a child? People can’t be born knowing things.”
Liu Kai think, kill the horse is “youth meal”, when young no economic pressure to play at will, but grow up must go to work, to support themselves, you can not put down, it is time to grow up.
In fact, this is also the situation faced by the majority of killers. In Sina Weibo, by the microblogging video initiated by the “kill horse aristocrats” topic – “take you to remember, your kill horse non-mainstream era! The topic was read by more than 10 million people, and 3865 people participated in the discussion, and they showed their own photos of their former killer horse.
And now, these former killjoys are all grown up.
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